Apollo
(s.ochsner)
Tell me all your feelings love. Put everything on me.
The truth is what you say you want, but the truth you won’t believe.
Distance is what keeps us right because affection kills our pride.
The devil shows his patience so we close our eyes.
I’m tired of apologizing to people that just don’t care.
I’m tired of apologizing to ghosts that were never there.
Is this what you wanted from me?
Losing myself inside your shadow. Sending a signal but no one’s there.
The worst is what you see. Is this what you wanted from me?
Influence
(s.ochsner)
Slow tonight. One step at a time I’ll leave a burning light, but comfort starts a fire.
From the dead they rise. The demons that I buried long ago.
Hands over my eyes, I fall asleep into a nightmare held by ghosts.
Influence.
Slow tonight. To feel and take control.
You pull me in so close to change my mind.
I’ve never needed the answers. I’ve never needed a cage to keep me down.
So controlled by desire. I bury myself underneath the sound.
Influence.
Pull me in. Hands over my eyes.
Pull me in. Turning out the lights.
Pull me in. Hands over my eyes.
Satellite
(s.ochsner)
Staring into space tonight, wondering where I went wrong.
Always chasing endless daydreams. Everyone pretending. Attention they’re demanding. Yeah, I’m out.
It’s a fiery descent. Piece by piece, intentionally I’ll disconnect. Never wanted to be your satellite.
You like the sound of your own voice, but I’m not listening. Giving nothing to take everything.
Killing good intentions. Forcing your opinions.
Is there anyone that’s truly listening, or am I talking to myself again?
Is this love or hope? Just help me understand. Sell me. Sell me like you sell everyone else.
I’m over it. Is this just all for nothing? I need to die for something to take my fears away?
Is this just all for nothing? I need to die for something to wash my tears away?
Choke
(s.ochsner)
It’s too late for falling asleep. It’s too late to live in a dream.
Chasing all the time I’ve wasted, nothing left to hold.
I’ll keep on digging this hole. A mouth full of dirt and stone.
All your good intentions wasted, all to hell we go.
You think I don’t know, but I found out.
A stranger, so easily and suddenly. You’re just so cold.
It’s too late for falling asleep. It’s too late to die in a dream.
Nothing ever tastes like poison, I guess I should have known.
It’s a shame it didn’t take. I tried to look the other way, I can’t.
Another victim of a sun that didn’t rise, so tell me… How do you feel? I hope you feel.
You think I’m gone, but I’m here now.
A stranger, your sympathy is nothing free. You’re just so cold.
You’d rather watch me choke.
Something I Can Feel
(s.ochsner)
Cover up to numb the pain inside. What’s the point when no-one leaves alive?
Is this the way you want it? Is this the love you dreamed about?
I won’t be suffocated. Speak now or count me out.
After all this time. I’m over feeling under the pressure of goodbye.
We can stay and fall apart. Just give me something I can feel.
It’s a sinking feeling in me, like I’m falling in a dream. Will I lose everything that holds me, to say exactly what I mean?
We can stay and fall apart. The pressure. Just give me something I can feel.
Clementine
(s.ochsner)
Alone again. Some things were never meant to be, but it’s not what it seems.
Another life. What would you sacrifice to see if the grass is greener?
Clementine. You’ve seen the worst of me I swear.
We’re running out of time. Never-mind the way I feel because you don’t care. You never cared.
Alone again. I can’t go through with it. I’m sorry. It’s worse than it seems.
I’ve been wasting time on things that satisfy my mind, while you’re somewhere else.
Wish I knew what I know now. Wish I’d really known you.
Is there a chance in starting over? Head in the clouds, but it’s a long way down.
It’s worse than it seems.
Taking Turns
(s.ochsner)
I’ve seen better days than this. I’m tired of saying I’ll forgive, forget. Because you’ll never change.
One by one, looks like you’re having fun selling us out.
I’ve seen better days than this. I’m out of reasons, out of time to fix this mess you’ve made.
One by one, your secrets come undone. Look at you now.
It hurts so much to feel. To love you, to hate you. And I’m sorry I’m confused by what is real.
To love you, is to get you out.
I never saw this coming from you. Congratulations. You burned this all to the ground. Congratulations.
You got what you wanted, now just leave me alone.
The more you lie the more we’re getting to the truth. The more you show yourself the less I have to prove.
I never thought that things would end this way. Taking turns, stealing what should be earned. Look at us now.
I never saw this coming from you. Congratulations. You kept on swinging when I was down. Congratulations.
You got me, burned me. Get out. Leave me alone.
Tired Eyes
(s.ochsner)
It’s cold enough to stay inside, a feeling that I have always known.
We chase the change into the night, never to be seen again.
Stay here. Stay low. Steady like the river flows.
If you can’t find a reason, you just keep repeating all the things that you miss.
Are you so sick of living with tired eyes? I can see it. You’re falling apart.
It’s cold enough to stay inside, I’ll leave you here with a winter coat.
Standing in the fading light, waiting to be seen again.
If there is nothing to save. If there is nothing to lose. What’s the point of being afraid if we’re starting over?
Penny Wish
(s.ochsner, r. todd)
A broken frame to hold the pieces. A broken lens for seeing clearer. A broken heart to have faith in the fire.
I can’t afford to be here. I can’t afford to leave. Is it fear and feeling hopeless? Or something in between?
I tried to understand it, but it always feels the same. Silence.
In silence, I’m holding out for something. Sell myself for nothing.
It’s like breathing without oxygen. I feed it any way I can. Holding out for something. Sell myself for nothing.
A broken mirror to catch the sunlight. A penny wish for something better.
An empty promise. Dead weight, through the fire. I tried to understand it, but it always feels the same. Silence.
End of My Rope
(r. todd)
Life is short. The world is dark.
It’s tearing out the wings of a wounded heart. I’ve got no answer at the end of my rope.
The dust on the mirror, there’s a short goodbye. I’m staring out the window at the strangers walking by.
I can’t get an answer at the end of my rope.
Holding on but oh, there’s a weight. It pulls and it breaks.
Holding on but oh, there’s a weight. Let me lay my burden down.
Let me lay my burden down at the end of my rope.
On a lonely hill top there’s buried pride. It’s blowing out the candles and getting dust in the eyes.
I can’t find a reason at the end of my rope.
Life is short. The world is dark.